My Body is Incredible, Sexy and Wonderful and so is Yours!
Like many people, I was never a huge fan of what I saw when I looked in the mirror. I'd excercise daily, watch what I ate and still I wasn't happy - despite the fact I was a healthy, and muscly, size 10 I always found 'faults' with my frame. The thought of leaving the house without makeup terrified me and my hair had to be styled 'perfectly' before I was happy to go on a night out...

That is, until I was diagnosed with stage four ovarian cancer in January 2016 when I was just 30 years old...

Suddenly everything I identified as me slipped through my fingers.

In a matter of weeks I was skin and bone; unable to weight train or run like I had before. I cut my long blonde hair and donated it to be made into a wig for a child with cancer; the hair that remained was soon falling out in clumps as chemotherapy took affect.

Then, less than 4 months after my diagnosis I had a massive operation, during which I had several of my abdominal organs removed. In fact, I had one of the largest operations performed on a stage four cancer patient having my womb, tubes, ovaries, cervix, spleen, appendix and omentum completely removed, as well as part of my liver, diaphram, pancreas and bowel. The result was an 18 inch scar, a colostomy bag and a body I had to relearn how to use.

Standing in front of the mirror a few weeks after my surgery, I didn't recognise the woman in front of me. Her skin was grey, her eyes were sunken, her face was creased with pain. She had no hair, she weighed just 42kg, her tummy was lined with scars, her back hunched over and she had a colostomy bag stuck to her tummy. I recall turning to my nurse and declaring "I look just like a cancer patient." She laughed gently and took my hand as she said with kindness "that's because you are one."

It was in that moment, and each moment since that I realised how incredible my body is. It doesn't need to look a certain way to be awesome. The fact that it is keeping me alive is pretty, freaking amazing in itself, don't you think?!

Moving forward I began to appreciate how blessed I am that my body keeps me alive despite the fact it is missing so many parts. With time and patience I learnt how to use my body again and I even trained as yoga teacher so that I can help others to learn to love and respect their bodies too. However, something was missing...

While I had learned how incredible my body is, it seemed that society was still lagging behind...

All around me were people ashamed of their scars, stretch marks and curves. I began to question why we had this view of what 'perfect' and 'sexy' should look like. As I pondered this I realised that society is sadly lacking models, actors and other role models that can lead the way and show us that you don't have to look a certain way in order to be 'perfect'. I even wrote a whole blog post asking why we don't see more actors, actresses, models (and so on) with scars, colostomy bags and other 'imperfect' marks left by life.

Today I see a badass warrior woman when I look in the miror and I couldn’t be more proud of my body. I am a fierce and confident woman with surgical scars that line my tummy, a colostomy bag that saved my life and a passion for encouraging people to love and embrace their bodies too.

It took stage four ovarian cancer, chemotherapy and massive surgery before I appreciated my body...I want YOU to realise that your body is already incredible, sexy and wonderful just as it is. After all, the word 'imperfect' really just means "I'M PERFECT" so go out into the world loving your body and valuing it for all it enables you to do.

Love and light, Fi xxx

Please bring your partner, friend or family member with you for a FREE evening filled with love and support, during which you will be able to join in discussion (or sit and observe) in a safe and supportive space free from judgement.

www.fkmunro.com

Health Blogger of the Year 2017

Author of "Love, Light and Mermaid Tails: One Woman's Healing Journey Back to Wholeness Through Stage Four Cancer"

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*Fi Munro (PhD) is a multi award winning researcher, author, blogger, fundraiser and public speaker recognised internationally for her presentations and articles on her journey and holistic health. She has been featured in two BBC documentaries, in TV and radio shows, and in newspaper and magazine articles across the globe. She is fuelled by positivity, valuing time in nature, yoga and eating the right food as three of the most important parts of any holistic treatment plan.